At the start of the week I gave myself a very strong talking to. The bottom of my tee-shirts had started migrating away from the top of my jeans, exposing my very unattractive 'muffin top' belly and when standing starkers in front of the bathroom mirror I looked like my Mother (who I loved deeply but did not have a great figure due to three children and a lifetime of never saying no, foodwise!). Even in a steamed up mirror I did not look alluring or even vaguely human so the talk began.
I asked myself what is was that I really wanted. I replied that I wanted to look good. 'You do look good, you have nice clothes, you have your hair done and your shave your bits on a regular basis' 'Okay. To be more specific, I want to look slimmer. I want to feel attractive. I want to be noticed and for people to admire me as a woman in her late forties looking h
er best. I don't want to be invisable any more and I don't want to be a frump. I want to be the Slimming World lady (as known by Morrisons staff) who advertises by looking good'.
'Then get your finger out! Stop messing about, follow the bloody plan and be what you want to be'.
So I have. I can't exactly speak to my members like I spoke to me but the principle is the same. If you want it, work at it and it will come.
So Monday 14th June I went to work equipped with lunch (following Extra Easy), planned dinner and managed with 7.5 syns. Total success, Slimming World genius!
On Tuesday I went to work equipped with lunch, planned dinner, popped in to see Step-Papa and ate 4 biscuits = 14 syns!!!!!!!!! Followed by packet of crisps for 6.5 syns and a slice of tea cake for 5 syns. What the nonsense is that. Total syns = 31.5.
On Wednesday MGA got a job and due to the surprise, shock and relief I agreed to chinese take-away totalling, actually I lost count at 27 syns
As we know the secret of falling off the wagon is getting back on, so after my disappointing two days I got back on the SW horse and scrapped home with a respectable 1 syn day followed by a 6.5 syn day.
Weight loss this week = 0.5 lbs. Not great but a loss!
So today I am as focused as ever. Went to see Step-Papa and promptly had 3 biscuits, total syns 17.5 by 2pm! I am working tonight so will be taking munchies of blueberries, grapes and strawberries. Have knitting (Christening blanket now has date for finishing - July 11th, so will need to improve of 11 completed rows!) and Nutrition course to keep me active and away from the vending machine. I don't like Mars bars but I would chase and kill one in the middle of the night if I had to.
This week I am aiming for 2 lb loss. The moral of this story is that sabotage comes in all disguises. It comes from family who think that they are being nice, polite, accommodating. It comes from ourselves. We get scared, we come out of our comfort zones. I want to look better than I do. I want to be healthier than I am. I joined a gym 6 months ago and have been twice. Why, because when my alarm goes off at 6 am I want to stay in bed for 10 more minutes not chase out for a swim. When I finish work I want to go home and snooze, not go on a cross trainer and sweat my socks off. I want to eat chinese and lose weight, I want to eat biscuits and lose weight. I want to be 20 again and not have to worry. The harsh reality is, I'm not 20. I have to make changes and I have to make an effort to look as good as I dream of being. I have to comply with a healthy eating programme, either that or I have to stop visiting Step-Papa!
Saturday 19 June 2010
Saturday 12 June 2010
Saturday 12th June
Well this week Slimming World Goddess has lost 2lbs in weight. I have had only one 4 finger Kit-kat and no Revels. I have also given up on tea, preferring the herbal infusions. After the cranberry juice fiasco I have been drinking red teas and really enjoying them. This means that I have not been having milk or sugar. This also means that I had a superating mass of white stuff growing in a carton in the door of my fridge that I had completely forgotten about, which cleared the kitchen when I took the lid off. I had to dilute the yoghurt/cheese mix with water before I could get it down the plug 'ole.
Morrisons had an offer on bargain Passatta so I have a cupboard full. Any meal has a tomato base which is a positive too. I have also started using wraps stuffed full of salad for lunch. This is great because my brain feels that it has had bread and my stomach knows it is all good. Hence the 2 lb weight loss. A step closer to getting into my LBD!
Morrisons had an offer on bargain Passatta so I have a cupboard full. Any meal has a tomato base which is a positive too. I have also started using wraps stuffed full of salad for lunch. This is great because my brain feels that it has had bread and my stomach knows it is all good. Hence the 2 lb weight loss. A step closer to getting into my LBD!
Saturday 5 June 2010
Saturday 5th June
Today is a red day. Well actually its orange. Nothing to do with SW. It's the colour of my legs after I sprayed fake tan on them and then went to bed. I had planned to wear a skirt today, in this heat wave, but had to re-evaluate after these luminous orange dangly things were spotted hanging off the end of my body. Pollock would be proud! So instead I wore white trousers, with a hint of luminosity!
I have spent the day practising what life will be like when both of my off-spring have left home. I did very well today. I dressed well, put my face on and went into town to buy Pyms for an afternoon of 'catch-up' with my Sister. The best made plans and all that, I couldn't get any money out of the bank and my Sister couldn't come and play due to a teeny weeny crisis. Even my Step-Dad had gone out. So I spent my last £3.50 on this months 'Woman and Home' and sat in the garden all day. I put aside the fact that I have a christening blanket to make, an assigment to complete, revision to do for an exam in 10 days time and member data entry for Xpress Weigh.
Breakfast was the usual. Lunch was Chili Chicken and salad, followed by M-L yoghurt. Dinner was steak (griddled), Jersey Royal pots and peas. Houmous and cruditees for picking.
I am SW Goddess!!!
I have spent the day practising what life will be like when both of my off-spring have left home. I did very well today. I dressed well, put my face on and went into town to buy Pyms for an afternoon of 'catch-up' with my Sister. The best made plans and all that, I couldn't get any money out of the bank and my Sister couldn't come and play due to a teeny weeny crisis. Even my Step-Dad had gone out. So I spent my last £3.50 on this months 'Woman and Home' and sat in the garden all day. I put aside the fact that I have a christening blanket to make, an assigment to complete, revision to do for an exam in 10 days time and member data entry for Xpress Weigh.
Breakfast was the usual. Lunch was Chili Chicken and salad, followed by M-L yoghurt. Dinner was steak (griddled), Jersey Royal pots and peas. Houmous and cruditees for picking.
I am SW Goddess!!!
Friday 4 June 2010
Friday 4th June
A cracking day Grommit! The weather has been fabulous. I have spent the day chilling and getting myself mentally prepared for going back to work. I am very focused with regards to losing weight, on a green day, but did have a slight hiccup when I went to a friends house (garden actually!) for afternoon tea and had a cake.
However, breakfast was shreddies (40, join in when you know the words), yoghurt and blueberries. Lunch was green salad with fat free cottage cheese and then Ainsley Harriotts Pea and Mint Risotto (10 mins in microwave). Very nice!
Today TGUW left to go and live with his Dad and MGA went down to Wales too just for the weekend. Which means - EAT WHAT I LIKE. I fancied Indian. Do I call the local take-out or do I do my own?
I did my own.
Dinner was chicken curry - onions, peppers, garlic and baby corns. Spices - tumeric, medium curry powder, ginger. Add chicken and 1/2 carton of Passatta. Cook rice and stir using curried spoon so rice changes colour and looks great. Side dish of fat free natural yoghurt with chopped mint and cucumber. Served big plate of rice and half of curry, with rest put aside to have with jacket potato tomorrow. Fab-u-lious!
I am on a roll!
However, breakfast was shreddies (40, join in when you know the words), yoghurt and blueberries. Lunch was green salad with fat free cottage cheese and then Ainsley Harriotts Pea and Mint Risotto (10 mins in microwave). Very nice!
Today TGUW left to go and live with his Dad and MGA went down to Wales too just for the weekend. Which means - EAT WHAT I LIKE. I fancied Indian. Do I call the local take-out or do I do my own?
I did my own.
Dinner was chicken curry - onions, peppers, garlic and baby corns. Spices - tumeric, medium curry powder, ginger. Add chicken and 1/2 carton of Passatta. Cook rice and stir using curried spoon so rice changes colour and looks great. Side dish of fat free natural yoghurt with chopped mint and cucumber. Served big plate of rice and half of curry, with rest put aside to have with jacket potato tomorrow. Fab-u-lious!
I am on a roll!
Wednesday 2 June 2010
Wednesday 2nd June
My recovery from surgery has been far from uneventful but in the great scheme of things, I have gotten off lightly. I did acquire a urine infection which was pretty uncomfortable but an inevitability considering that I had a catheter. I was given antibiotics and advised to drink plenty of cranberry juice. I went to the local health shop to stock up on arnica, vitamins and other healing-inducing preparations in a vain attempt to increase my chances of returning to work some time soon. £35.00 later I had a carry bag full of concoctions, including special offer cranberry juice. I have given this plenty of times but never been one to indulge myself. I was generally feeling slighly low and unloved so poured half a mug full and then added boiling water, in an attempt to recreate those days when Mum would make everything better with warm Delrosa and a junior aspirin. I was hooked, totally hooked. I initially got through 4 litres of the stuff then Morrisons had an offer so I bought another six litres. In fact, since then I haven't drank tea (not one for coffee). I have been drinking hot cranberry juice about 6 times a day. My bladder has taken on a new and controlled lease of life and I feel good. So good in fact that I spent a couple of hours planting things in the garden, over did it totally and had to take 2 paracetamol and sleep for a few hours!
Now with regards to my eating and sleeping. A general anaesthetic ususally knocks one for six anyway, but to me, it upsets my sleep patter so it has taken me all this time to get back to 6 hours continuous slumber. Thank goodness for the 'Life on Mars' box set, is all I can say! I was supposed to be looked after by MGA, who buggered off to a friends house for one night and was last seen slopping off in a town-wise direction! Not one single cooked meal passed my lips for seven days. The night that MGA went off I walked to Morrisons, bought chicken goujons and crockette potatoes and scoffed the lot! Since then I have been in charge of the kitchen. TGUW has appeared and has been very helpful, moving garden furniture around and carrying bags of compost. Before asking for money. That warm, fuzzy feeling just won't go away!
I haven't been too concern about my eating habits as I am a firm believer in letting ones body heal as it has to. And if that means eating finger foods then so be it. Until I got onto the scales - 5 lbs on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I now stand at 12 stone 11.5 lbs. Nearly back to my 13 stone starting weight. I had a quick peek at the FO book and cranberry juice, for 42mls, is 4.5 syns.
Well bugger healing - back to food optimising!!
Now with regards to my eating and sleeping. A general anaesthetic ususally knocks one for six anyway, but to me, it upsets my sleep patter so it has taken me all this time to get back to 6 hours continuous slumber. Thank goodness for the 'Life on Mars' box set, is all I can say! I was supposed to be looked after by MGA, who buggered off to a friends house for one night and was last seen slopping off in a town-wise direction! Not one single cooked meal passed my lips for seven days. The night that MGA went off I walked to Morrisons, bought chicken goujons and crockette potatoes and scoffed the lot! Since then I have been in charge of the kitchen. TGUW has appeared and has been very helpful, moving garden furniture around and carrying bags of compost. Before asking for money. That warm, fuzzy feeling just won't go away!
I haven't been too concern about my eating habits as I am a firm believer in letting ones body heal as it has to. And if that means eating finger foods then so be it. Until I got onto the scales - 5 lbs on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I now stand at 12 stone 11.5 lbs. Nearly back to my 13 stone starting weight. I had a quick peek at the FO book and cranberry juice, for 42mls, is 4.5 syns.
Well bugger healing - back to food optimising!!
Thursday 27 May 2010
Thursday 6th May
Despite the fact that my bladder now lives just under my chin, my weight loss this week has been 1/2 lb. Am I pleased? Yes I am. The reason being, I have eaten hospital food (did I say that I was admitted after my surgery?), snacked on whatever I fancy (I am healing you know) and been unable to follow my strict gym regime (been twice in five months) so 1/2 lb off is just fine by me.
I have fallen in love with wraps, spread with Phili cheese and filled with chicken and salad. Followed by M-L yoghurt. I have learnt to fold the wraps and they are delicious and filling. They also don't need cooking, which is just as well. Home cooked food has been scarce since I went under the knife, due to the fact that I am being looked after by Nurse Cratchett. I have 'fancied' and given in but not wanted a full meal. Perhaps I need to give up on eating plans altogether and just go for weekly general aneasthetics, just as some go for Botox.
I have fallen in love with wraps, spread with Phili cheese and filled with chicken and salad. Followed by M-L yoghurt. I have learnt to fold the wraps and they are delicious and filling. They also don't need cooking, which is just as well. Home cooked food has been scarce since I went under the knife, due to the fact that I am being looked after by Nurse Cratchett. I have 'fancied' and given in but not wanted a full meal. Perhaps I need to give up on eating plans altogether and just go for weekly general aneasthetics, just as some go for Botox.
Sunday 23 May 2010
Sunday 23rd May
What a weekend!
I only went into hospital for the day for a routine op and came out 1 day later having had more attention in the 'ladies department' than I have ever had in the whole of my life. I have been left with alot of pain, a belly that looks like I've been carrying for at least 5 months and the energy level of a toddler. However, I am off for the next two weeks so this blog could get very boring indeed!!!
I am now an expert in hospital food (having experienced 3 meals, and one of them was breakfast (choice of cereal)) and I have to say that it wasn't half bad. I had a sandwich on the first evening and chicken korma followed by cherry pie and hot custard ( I am healing!!) for lunch the following day. It was the portion size that got me. Now I have been a nurse for more years than I care to remember and I have fed many a patient. But the portions looked as though they wouldn't satisfy a flea, however, I was stuffed. There is something to be said for portion control.
Before I went into hospital I had a very health, healing inducing supper of salad with various 'added bits' such as baby corns, grapes and watercress. In an attempt to be in tip top condition and heal quickly. Imagine my surprise when I sufferred every complication explained to me, all before 5 pm in the afternoon! My surgery was at 9 am and I managed to sit upright at around 3pm because of low blood pressure. And that was just the start.
Anyway, I am safe at home now, walking as though I have done the coast-to-coast on a bumpy road on the back of a lame mule! With my belly containing a bowling ball and my lady parts begging for gender re-organisation!
Food -wise I am back on track and going off now to watch Micheal Buble
I only went into hospital for the day for a routine op and came out 1 day later having had more attention in the 'ladies department' than I have ever had in the whole of my life. I have been left with alot of pain, a belly that looks like I've been carrying for at least 5 months and the energy level of a toddler. However, I am off for the next two weeks so this blog could get very boring indeed!!!
I am now an expert in hospital food (having experienced 3 meals, and one of them was breakfast (choice of cereal)) and I have to say that it wasn't half bad. I had a sandwich on the first evening and chicken korma followed by cherry pie and hot custard ( I am healing!!) for lunch the following day. It was the portion size that got me. Now I have been a nurse for more years than I care to remember and I have fed many a patient. But the portions looked as though they wouldn't satisfy a flea, however, I was stuffed. There is something to be said for portion control.
Before I went into hospital I had a very health, healing inducing supper of salad with various 'added bits' such as baby corns, grapes and watercress. In an attempt to be in tip top condition and heal quickly. Imagine my surprise when I sufferred every complication explained to me, all before 5 pm in the afternoon! My surgery was at 9 am and I managed to sit upright at around 3pm because of low blood pressure. And that was just the start.
Anyway, I am safe at home now, walking as though I have done the coast-to-coast on a bumpy road on the back of a lame mule! With my belly containing a bowling ball and my lady parts begging for gender re-organisation!
Food -wise I am back on track and going off now to watch Micheal Buble
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